Hubby and I came back from Florida last Wednesday. I can still say we are both not fully settled lol. We were only there for 9 days but man does it really throw me off. This trip was defiantly anything I expected. It really showed me how much I have grown. It tested my patience, anger, self love, and my relationship. I don’t really want to get into every detail but staying with another persons family or friend that I personally have not spent time with before I will not stay with them.
I am actually really happy that it was such a tough trip. I am now on the road AGAIN to my zen. I am bringing nothing but positivity to my life. Before I even take my first step I will be saying my positive mantras. I am calm, cool, and collected. I will not continue to let negativity affect my life.
I am saying it today I WILL LIVE IN South Carolina. I am giving my self the MOST three years. I will be there and I WILL start my family there.
It’s a Friday night and I’m feeling alright. I have a face mask on, with my feet up on my boyfriend, scrolling through Netflix. Our Bulldog is laying down next to our sticker bombed table. As I write this all out I realize life ain’t so bad. This is exactly why I needed to bring my thoughts to word. For as long as I can remember I’ve always been a prisioner in my own mind. At least that’s how I felt. Trapped, unsure, scared. I’m 26 and these past 6 months I’ve changed. Deeply, Spiritually. I am my own person. I am mine. I’ve always went through the motions of life. Always wanting to make everyone happy. But this is my life. This is what I believe. This is my road to ritches. The person I once was I don’t even remember. I CHOOSE to be happy and positive. And now I’m choosing to put me first. To put my smile on my own face. I’m alive and God I’m going to live. love me and love life!
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