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Pursuit of Happiness

I’ve always been on a hunt. I don’t ever exactly know what I’m looking for but I am always looking. I’ve been called different names a wanderlust, a searcher, ADD, ADHD, spoiled, restless. All different names but it’s not my fault. I am looking for happiness. I find it for a short time but then it doesn’t make me happy anymore and I’m on to the next thing.

I moved to Indiana by myself when I was 22 with 100.00 to my name. I made it and loved it but eventually moved back home because I missed my family. I am starting to realize that THINGS do not make me happy. What truly makes me happy are adventures, hard times, good times, all memories, people, myself and love.

This brings me to always search and learn. New locations, lifestyles, mantras, hobbies, and skills. Recently I started to research what is Minimalism and I am glad I did. Although this has been about a month of research I am feeling better even just THINKING about living my life as a Minimalist. I recently found a documentary on Netflix and had the hubby watch. Even though I appreciate this lifestyle I need to introduce it to him slowly, he’s not one for radical change. I can not wait to get rid of all the bins of clothes and shoes!

We will be living in South Carolina within two years and we will live our dream life. Hubby and I have went over it hundreds of times and I’m so happy to say that we are both on the same page. I can not picture myself living in this rat race any longer. I want to make my family and myself happy. The Law of Attraction works and I just need to really start focusing on my happiness. I will no longer let any negativity in my circle.

Life is good but it can always be better. I’m not sure what being an adult is but I know what I am going to make it. Hopefully just don’t lose my mind on the pursuit of it.

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Back From Florida

Hubby and I came back from Florida last Wednesday. I can still say we are both not fully settled lol. We were only there for 9 days but man does it really throw me off. This trip was defiantly anything I expected. It really showed me how much I have grown. It tested my patience, anger, self love, and my relationship. I don’t really want to get into every detail but staying with another persons family or friend that I personally have not spent time with before I will not stay with them.

I am actually really happy that it was such a tough trip. I am now on the road AGAIN to my zen. I am bringing nothing but positivity to my life. Before I even take my first step I will be saying my positive mantras. I am calm, cool, and collected. I will not continue to let negativity affect my life.

I am saying it today I WILL LIVE IN South Carolina. I am giving my self the MOST three years. I will be there and I WILL start my family there.

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I Work Out

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So it has been a solid two weeks of dedication. Hubby and I have really taken to getting into out fitness. We have cut down on the amount of fast food we eat. I started to cook some meals rather than only relying on him to feed us.

I started to make sure I eat at least 5 times a day. Three meals and two snacks, although it seems to turn into three snacks and two meals. I have been really changing my relationship with food and am truly enjoying the journey.

I ran my first mile in years. Although it was 11 minutes I shaved off 3 seconds of my time already. I love what my body is able to do. I am still learning to use my mind over my body. I can get in the zone but it doesn’t last as long as I would like. Slowly but surly I am building the healthiest I can be.

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Goals

B6F5EF58-34BE-49E6-81E0-F49AE02EFA0AAs long as I could remember I always had goals for myself and lists. As much as I remember the goals and lists I also remember not finishing most them. One of the main goals I’ve always had to lose weight. About 3 years ago I started to really focus on it and through out these three years I’ve strongly maintained between the 15 I want to lose. I am tired of this constant battle.

Last year I got down to my goal weight of about 135 but then it was a short victory because 5 pounds came back quick. Recently I’ve been really focusing on my food and water intake. I’ve been learning more and skipping less meals. My mentality has changed and I want to be healthy I do not want to be skinny. I want to be able to do a cartwheel without worrying. I want to be able to run a mile no worries.

This time around I really want to learn as much as I can about nutrition. I want to fuel my future children the right way. Growing up and being raised by young parents fast food was a staple to our diet. When my parents separated food became a comfort. Renewing a 27 year old relationship is hard but this time I am dedicated. Today we are going to sign up for the gym and tomorrow starts our first gym day. Ive been looking for a new hobby and my fitness will be it.

If I did it before I can do it again. I started to learn about my macros. Its a bit confusing but I really do enjoy it. MyFitnessPal is also such a huge help! So here it goes again!

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Rough And Tough

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Hello I am back again with another DIY Beauty post. This new one is now a new face mask miracle. In one of my many, many trips through Pinterest I saw many different type of face masks. I originally tried baking soda and Apple Cider Vinegar. It was a nice mask but it burned and left my skin really coarse.

So the next go around I added a teaspoon of activated charcoal powder. I didn’t realize how much I was actually going to make thankfully my wonderful hubby brought me home a bunch of these white and black containers and I was able to save the rest.

I put about 4 tablespoons of ACV in a plastic cup about 4 shakes of baking soda and a spoon of activated charcoal powder. Don’t worry when you add the baking soda and it starts to fizzle. After all of the mixing it will turn into a paste. When all is mixed, put the paste on and let harden. It will sizzle, harden, and turn gray. When I wash the mask off I wash it off with my hands and then I use a face towel and wash in circular motions.

It is my best face mask I have made. My skin feels the softest and cleanest it has in a while! My skin also feels tighter. I definitely  suggest trying it out!

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Energy Suckers & a Revelation

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It’s hard to really protect yourself from all the negative energy and patterns in the world. Even though I try my best to not get sucked in. Some of the people I am forced to spend my time with are very negative and these energy suckers. They wish bad behind your back and spit venom every time they speak about you. They only wish the worse for you and hate to see you succeed. They want to plant seeds of hate and anger in you and help to grow them. I have fallen for traps that they have placed but we can only recognize and grow. I know that I have grown and continue to. About two days ago I woke up feeling brand new. I can’t really explain it but it was like someone shut off my over caring button.

I truthfully just do not care about things that do not affect me. I am surrounding myself with only people that want the best for me. I will only think positive thoughts and partake in positive experiences. I CHOOSE not to be upset, anxious, worried, and anything but happy.

The most important aspect that I have realized is that other peoples opinions and feelings do not have anything to do with me. They do not affect me at all. I also noticed how much better I feel when I don’t say I’m sorry for everything. You know why because I 99% of the time was not truly sorry. Someone else drops something, “oh I’m sorry” someone bumps into me “oh I’m sorry” someone is having a shitty day “oh I’m sorry” nope not anymore. You dropped something? here I’ll pick it up, you’re welcome. someone bumps into me, turn and deep stare until they apologize (lol not really I just keep it moving.) you’re having a shitty day? maybe you’re having the day you deserve.

I am first. And this does sound a little me, me, me but it does not have anything to do nor affect my family and close circle of friends. I will always be me but I will be more selective with who I will let see me.