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From Rags to Minimalist

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So I have been on the road of self discovery for some time now but its finally settling in. I’ve recently  found the life of Minimalism. I was able to give away about 3 bags of clothes but it is over whelming. Honestly it was so hard to start. Between my boyfriend and I we had clothes all over. It was so overwhelming I constantly found myself sitting on the edge of the bed with my head in my hands.

The three bags were just mine and they are gallon size garbage bags. We are taking the bags to Platos Closet so maybe I can be happier with the process. As the clothes piles were getting smaller I found it harder and harder to give things up. But at the same time I also noticed how much of the clothes were so cheaply made. I noticed I had more cheap, broken clothes than quality clothes.

I went online to research how much quality clothes cost and I almost had a heartache. Between having my heart hurt from getting rid of clothes to seeing how much money quality clothes cost I had about two panic attacks. I started to realize why I had such a problem with minimalism.

I grew up poor. My parents were very young and we had struggled for everything we have. As soon as I started to get “adult money” I started to buy to replace all the wants I ever wanted as a child. Its hard to say out loud or write it down but its the truth. This is something I have to put my focus on now. I have to realize that it is ok and BETTER to spend 90.00 on a pair of Levi jeans if they last me 3 years than to buy 9 pairs of 10 dollar jeans that will last me 3 months.

This is a hard road of self discovery but I’ve been on it for nearly 4 years and its the best and ONLY thing I’ve whole heartedly stuck to and its made me happy. Every year I get better. I can feel it. My heart just keeps growing with love and letting go of anger, hate, anxiety, and revenge.

I really do love me and this smile is genuine. If theres any minimalist out there that can send me any brand advice I would love to hear it! xO

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I Work Out

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So it has been a solid two weeks of dedication. Hubby and I have really taken to getting into out fitness. We have cut down on the amount of fast food we eat. I started to cook some meals rather than only relying on him to feed us.

I started to make sure I eat at least 5 times a day. Three meals and two snacks, although it seems to turn into three snacks and two meals. I have been really changing my relationship with food and am truly enjoying the journey.

I ran my first mile in years. Although it was 11 minutes I shaved off 3 seconds of my time already. I love what my body is able to do. I am still learning to use my mind over my body. I can get in the zone but it doesn’t last as long as I would like. Slowly but surly I am building the healthiest I can be.

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Goals

B6F5EF58-34BE-49E6-81E0-F49AE02EFA0AAs long as I could remember I always had goals for myself and lists. As much as I remember the goals and lists I also remember not finishing most them. One of the main goals I’ve always had to lose weight. About 3 years ago I started to really focus on it and through out these three years I’ve strongly maintained between the 15 I want to lose. I am tired of this constant battle.

Last year I got down to my goal weight of about 135 but then it was a short victory because 5 pounds came back quick. Recently I’ve been really focusing on my food and water intake. I’ve been learning more and skipping less meals. My mentality has changed and I want to be healthy I do not want to be skinny. I want to be able to do a cartwheel without worrying. I want to be able to run a mile no worries.

This time around I really want to learn as much as I can about nutrition. I want to fuel my future children the right way. Growing up and being raised by young parents fast food was a staple to our diet. When my parents separated food became a comfort. Renewing a 27 year old relationship is hard but this time I am dedicated. Today we are going to sign up for the gym and tomorrow starts our first gym day. Ive been looking for a new hobby and my fitness will be it.

If I did it before I can do it again. I started to learn about my macros. Its a bit confusing but I really do enjoy it. MyFitnessPal is also such a huge help! So here it goes again!

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Rough And Tough

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Hello I am back again with another DIY Beauty post. This new one is now a new face mask miracle. In one of my many, many trips through Pinterest I saw many different type of face masks. I originally tried baking soda and Apple Cider Vinegar. It was a nice mask but it burned and left my skin really coarse.

So the next go around I added a teaspoon of activated charcoal powder. I didn’t realize how much I was actually going to make thankfully my wonderful hubby brought me home a bunch of these white and black containers and I was able to save the rest.

I put about 4 tablespoons of ACV in a plastic cup about 4 shakes of baking soda and a spoon of activated charcoal powder. Don’t worry when you add the baking soda and it starts to fizzle. After all of the mixing it will turn into a paste. When all is mixed, put the paste on and let harden. It will sizzle, harden, and turn gray. When I wash the mask off I wash it off with my hands and then I use a face towel and wash in circular motions.

It is my best face mask I have made. My skin feels the softest and cleanest it has in a while! My skin also feels tighter. I definitely  suggest trying it out!

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Energy Suckers & a Revelation

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It’s hard to really protect yourself from all the negative energy and patterns in the world. Even though I try my best to not get sucked in. Some of the people I am forced to spend my time with are very negative and these energy suckers. They wish bad behind your back and spit venom every time they speak about you. They only wish the worse for you and hate to see you succeed. They want to plant seeds of hate and anger in you and help to grow them. I have fallen for traps that they have placed but we can only recognize and grow. I know that I have grown and continue to. About two days ago I woke up feeling brand new. I can’t really explain it but it was like someone shut off my over caring button.

I truthfully just do not care about things that do not affect me. I am surrounding myself with only people that want the best for me. I will only think positive thoughts and partake in positive experiences. I CHOOSE not to be upset, anxious, worried, and anything but happy.

The most important aspect that I have realized is that other peoples opinions and feelings do not have anything to do with me. They do not affect me at all. I also noticed how much better I feel when I don’t say I’m sorry for everything. You know why because I 99% of the time was not truly sorry. Someone else drops something, “oh I’m sorry” someone bumps into me “oh I’m sorry” someone is having a shitty day “oh I’m sorry” nope not anymore. You dropped something? here I’ll pick it up, you’re welcome. someone bumps into me, turn and deep stare until they apologize (lol not really I just keep it moving.) you’re having a shitty day? maybe you’re having the day you deserve.

I am first. And this does sound a little me, me, me but it does not have anything to do nor affect my family and close circle of friends. I will always be me but I will be more selective with who I will let see me.

 

 

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Real Time Product Review

My worse quality I have is the inability to trust. The number one thing I do not trust are companies and products. I research the hell out of products before I finally choose one to purchase. I am so frugal about things but hey its my hard earned money. So you will only get real life reviews of products and always keep it real.

So I am very very light skinned. Recently I showed two different co-workers my legs from my ASAP Smoothie and they both reacted with such shock when they saw how pasty my legs are. So from then on I have been researching for the best self tanner. I have tried Jergen’s but it takes a little too long to build up that tan and wanted something better and faster working.

From many reviews I stumbled upon St. Moriz Instant Tanning Mouse. It had nothing but good reviews over all. The only negative reviews I read were of the way shipping was handled. I found this great deal for 2 for 15 and just went to grab the link and it is now 10.78 best deal EVA ! So this is the best time to try. They sell one for 10.00 at my local Walgreens.

The pictures up top are obviously my legs and this is only after one time applying. I put it on right after my night time shower and exfoliating. When I woke up I was especially surprised to find there were no streaks! It was all put on evenly. It does have that spray tan smell. This picture is after my morning shower. The tan lasts more than I expected. This is defiantly a great build on tan. It does get darker with every apply. Don’t worry about being too dark each wash you lose about 20%. And you need to use gloves!! I got too excited and put it on with my hands and my palms looked like I was making mud pies in my backyard.

I took a poll with some people and it was great! Especially from my boyfriend who hates me tanning or self tanning. He said he was shocked at how dark I was and not orange like when I get a spray tan at the salon. So if you need some color especially before summer give this a try!