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Goals

B6F5EF58-34BE-49E6-81E0-F49AE02EFA0AAs long as I could remember I always had goals for myself and lists. As much as I remember the goals and lists I also remember not finishing most them. One of the main goals I’ve always had to lose weight. About 3 years ago I started to really focus on it and through out these three years I’ve strongly maintained between the 15 I want to lose. I am tired of this constant battle.

Last year I got down to my goal weight of about 135 but then it was a short victory because 5 pounds came back quick. Recently I’ve been really focusing on my food and water intake. I’ve been learning more and skipping less meals. My mentality has changed and I want to be healthy I do not want to be skinny. I want to be able to do a cartwheel without worrying. I want to be able to run a mile no worries.

This time around I really want to learn as much as I can about nutrition. I want to fuel my future children the right way. Growing up and being raised by young parents fast food was a staple to our diet. When my parents separated food became a comfort. Renewing a 27 year old relationship is hard but this time I am dedicated. Today we are going to sign up for the gym and tomorrow starts our first gym day. Ive been looking for a new hobby and my fitness will be it.

If I did it before I can do it again. I started to learn about my macros. Its a bit confusing but I really do enjoy it. MyFitnessPal is also such a huge help! So here it goes again!

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Rough And Tough

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Hello I am back again with another DIY Beauty post. This new one is now a new face mask miracle. In one of my many, many trips through Pinterest I saw many different type of face masks. I originally tried baking soda and Apple Cider Vinegar. It was a nice mask but it burned and left my skin really coarse.

So the next go around I added a teaspoon of activated charcoal powder. I didn’t realize how much I was actually going to make thankfully my wonderful hubby brought me home a bunch of these white and black containers and I was able to save the rest.

I put about 4 tablespoons of ACV in a plastic cup about 4 shakes of baking soda and a spoon of activated charcoal powder. Don’t worry when you add the baking soda and it starts to fizzle. After all of the mixing it will turn into a paste. When all is mixed, put the paste on and let harden. It will sizzle, harden, and turn gray. When I wash the mask off I wash it off with my hands and then I use a face towel and wash in circular motions.

It is my best face mask I have made. My skin feels the softest and cleanest it has in a while! My skin also feels tighter. I definitely  suggest trying it out!

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Energy Suckers & a Revelation

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It’s hard to really protect yourself from all the negative energy and patterns in the world. Even though I try my best to not get sucked in. Some of the people I am forced to spend my time with are very negative and these energy suckers. They wish bad behind your back and spit venom every time they speak about you. They only wish the worse for you and hate to see you succeed. They want to plant seeds of hate and anger in you and help to grow them. I have fallen for traps that they have placed but we can only recognize and grow. I know that I have grown and continue to. About two days ago I woke up feeling brand new. I can’t really explain it but it was like someone shut off my over caring button.

I truthfully just do not care about things that do not affect me. I am surrounding myself with only people that want the best for me. I will only think positive thoughts and partake in positive experiences. I CHOOSE not to be upset, anxious, worried, and anything but happy.

The most important aspect that I have realized is that other peoples opinions and feelings do not have anything to do with me. They do not affect me at all. I also noticed how much better I feel when I don’t say I’m sorry for everything. You know why because I 99% of the time was not truly sorry. Someone else drops something, “oh I’m sorry” someone bumps into me “oh I’m sorry” someone is having a shitty day “oh I’m sorry” nope not anymore. You dropped something? here I’ll pick it up, you’re welcome. someone bumps into me, turn and deep stare until they apologize (lol not really I just keep it moving.) you’re having a shitty day? maybe you’re having the day you deserve.

I am first. And this does sound a little me, me, me but it does not have anything to do nor affect my family and close circle of friends. I will always be me but I will be more selective with who I will let see me.